Friday, May 23, 2008

Vice Grip

vice 1 (vs)n.
a. An evil, degrading, or immoral practice or habit.
b. A serious moral failing.
c. Wicked or evil conduct or habits; corruption.
2. Sexual immorality, especially prostitution.
a. A slight personal failing; a foible: the vice of untidiness.
b. A flaw or imperfection; a defect.
4. A physical defect or weakness.
5. An undesirable habit, such as crib-biting, in a domestic animal.

Vices, those damn bad habits that you can't seem to shake whether it be smoking, drinking, sex, shopping, or procrastination. Your mind tells you no, but your body.....your body tells you YES!!.

With me I have a number of vices that I constantly tell myself I will drop but I trick myself into the "just one last time" mentality which as we all know is never the case. What I've noticed is with vices one always believes that it will make them feel better and that may be true for a little while, but once the high wears off if anything you feel worse than before because you realize it didn't really help at all and you fell for the same trick again.

The main reason why you feel worse is because you know better and you feel like you let yourself down again. So as you can see this causes a cycle where you need a pick-me-up and you run to the vice be it smoking, drinking, fucking or whatever to give you temporary relief.

As I've said in previous posts this blog is therapeutic for me and I hope it can be the same for y'all who take the time to read it.

From now on, I'm not gonna look for temporary relief and get caught in the cycle. I'm gonna be hardbody and look for the long term solution, which is of course bettering my life as a whole instead of just on a nightly basis.

I was inspired by the boy be. to write this, see why @

1 comment:

be. said...

Once again, I gotchu homey.