R.I.P Sean Bell

It took me a minute to write this one, because I didn't want to sound like just another angry black man that hates the police. So I held back the urge to wild out and use a bunch of CAPS and all that. I went back and looked at the full story of Sean Bell and how and why he was murdered and I'm still very baffled and frustrated that these officers that are supposed to serve and protect got away with such a crime. I know Sean Bell was arrested in the past for drug dealing and firearm possession. I even know that the club that his bachelor party was at (Kalua Caberet) was under surveillance for possible prostitution. I even heard the pigs bullshit story about a fourth man running away from the scene and shooting at one of the cops, which apparently isn't enough to launch a search party for ( Go figure) . But what I really can't figure out is how after all that, after they ran up on them (Sean Bell and friends) in plain clothes weapons drawn, that they felt endangered enough of these unarmed men to riddle their car up with 50 shots which btw one of the officers had to reload his gun to continue to shoot these innocent men. Take that in people...oh and the cherry on top.......verdict: NOT GUILTY........and people wonder why there's guns in the streets. If I still ended up sounding like an angry black man I guess it's cuz I am....R.I.P Sean Bell & Amadou Diallo

Little Hater continued ( Big Ups to Jay Smooth )

If you've read my about me section yet you would know I'm an aspiring music producer. I've been going hard at it for about 6 or 7 years and for the most part it's been a good look. I've had a few little successes and I've had the opportunities to work with great artists and have made great music up to this point. But for the majority of theses 6 to 7 years I've had this voice in the back of my head that's been slowing me down and sometimes stopping me months at a time. This little hater as Jay Smooth would call it ( www.illdoctrine.com ) for me has been more of a giant kinda like a dark cloud that I keep wishing one day will go away. So I'm determined to beat the little hater and I know this is going to be a tough task for me. Lately i've just been battling through it by just trying to ignore it while I'm making a beat or writing a hook. I've also been listening to my peers which mostly consist of aspiring producers, emcees, djs, and promoters who have helped me through some of my rough times. Shout Outs to Reservoir Dogz music, Dj Spoonz, Fusion 3 soundcrew, Charlie Black and the Mobstars fam, Mista Bourne and da rest of Mad Fam, Castro, Quest and the rest of Dime-a-Dozen. Last night for the first time in a long time I felt confident in my music again when I played a couple joints for my homie Castro ( Look out for him he's a beast ) and I gotta say it was refreshing.


p.s anyone who has any tips, ideas, suggestions or stories of how they beat their little hater please post a comment you may be helping someone to be the next big thing

Rage turned to Inspiration

The reason I decided to finally start this blog thing is mostly therapeutic. In the past couple of days i've found out my car is a fucking lemon, the government is truly a bunch of bloodsuckers (passport, birth certificate, student loan, etc....) and that karma's a bitch. So since I don't own a sniper rifle and I didn't know what else to do with myself I decided to blog it ( hence the title "Just my luck" ). To address the karma's a bitch thing, last night I got to back-to-back calls from girls saying that they got back with their ex's and they're extremely sorry. And right then and there it dawned on me all of this is happening because of me one way or another. The girls thing I understand because I've broken hearts and relationships in the past and though it's not easy to deal with, it's about time I got my just dues. As for everything else, the lemon I bought in a rush without taking my time to look for details, the passport should've been taken care many months ago, student loan I didn't pay for like 8 months straight lol, and the birth certificate I should have took that from my lose everything dad from long time. So the moral of the story is, the things you do in the present will affect your future ( and believe me they do ). To anybody who reads this, I promise I will try to be more positive with my posts in the weeks to come lol




p.s. This was only the beginning of the b.s. that's happened to me in the last couple of days but I don't think i'm ready to touch on thoses things yet

Finally

So over the past couple of weeks I've told some of my peers that I was thinking of starting up a blog myself because it's a good way to keep in touch with everyone but on a personal level. The only issue I had was I didn't know exactly what to say that might be interesting for people to read. But after the past couple days of nonsense I have now been inspired to get it up and running. Before I get into all the nonsense, I wanna thank everyone who has inspired me to blog. So shout outs to Star, Jay Smooth (ill doctrine), Sickamore, Ian Andre Espinet and Wan Luv.

p.s. I'm actually not much of a writer so bear with me as I get better at this